Nikki. Nikki is my partner in crime. You get us together it can be considered almost lethal. One of the thousand reasons I love Nikki is because she's just like me. Not exactly because that would be boring. But she's up for anything if I call her and say let's go fly out to Cali, she'll say ok. We have had a lot of rough times in our friendship. But it always turns out ok. She says I keep her sane and in reality when things get screwy and without me she wouldn't be doing half the things she does now. I'm glad I had that kind of impact on someone. It makes me feel like I finally did something worth while. We hated, HATED each other in jr. high, we used to make fun of each other on the bus every damn day. But something happened and we ended up being best friends, even dating guys who were best friends constantly. I remember there were times where our moms would try to keep us from hanging out but we'd always just do it anyways. Now her mom loves me and my mom loves her. As much as we get into our little situations and shit we keep each other out of trouble as much as we get ourselves into it. I defiantly don't think we will ever lose touch forever, she's one of the few people I picture still being there when I'm old and gray sitting on my rocker on the porch with my 80 cats talking about the golden years...and that's damn slick.
Tracy. I haven't known Trace as long as most of my other friends. But she has become one of my best friends. Yes, I did meet her online, and it shocks me still that I had opened up that much to someone across a computer. We share a lot of similarities and also have a lot of differences, but it seems to keep a balance. I'm constantly trying to convince her that she is a great person, I think I succeed sometimes, but she still gets down on herself which makes me sad. She brings me up when I'm sad though and I hope I succeed in doing the same for her. You're a great person, fuck everyone else's opinion and just be yourself..cuz yourself is cool as fuck. Kelly once said we were split from the same atom, which I could kinda see as true, she'd be the emotional side of me since I really tend to never show mine and she shows hers a lot, and I think I'd be the optimistic side of her because like I said, I'm always trying to help her see the brighter side of things. I really miss hanging out with her but she just moved back down here so hopefully we can again. She seems to be getting a little more confident about herself and I wish it would stay that way. Wait..she moved back home again...Tracy really needs to pick a place to live and stick with it haha.
Dave. I've known Dave since my junior year in High School and he has changed a lot since then. I think it's in a good way. He went from seeming very self conscious to just being total hardcore Dave. He's my best guy friend. And even though I know he thinks a lot of the things I choose to do are stupid, he doesn't judge me based on them. I believe I can tell Dave anything without him laughing at me, or at least not to my face. We haven't been hanging out as much as we used to lately and that makes me kind of sad, but all in all I am glad he's on his way to finding some kind of happiness.
Kelly. I met Kell-ah online a while ago, and I lied last time about how and she corrected me, she posted something on the Orgy message board and I e-mailed her about it (did I get it right this time?). It was some show we were both at where Jay got into a fight and ended up accidentally giving her a black eye. Anyway, we started writing really long e mails back and forth, yadda yadda the friendship evolved and she has also become a friend...tho she insists that I hate her all the time *kick*. Kelly's a good person and Colleen says that you need to stop being so hard on yourself about guys.
Colleen. If you put me and Coll in a room together with a few other people, and asked a panel to figure out which one I was friends with, I think she would be their last choice. Total opposites here, she likes rap music, clubs like the Tunnel, dresses 'totally normal', etc.etc. Then you have me who hates rap music, thinks the Tunnel sucks, and dresses 'slightly strange'. But we met back in 7th grade through a mutual friend and have been very good friends ever since. I really value her frienship because she like Dave accepts me just the way I am.
Heather. Heather..known her for 13 years. And watched her go through 50 different changes ha. We always got along tho, we have never fought once, like serious fighting. And we still get along. I really don't know what to say about Heather besides I am glad that we are still friends and I am thankful for all the advice you have given me in the past.
Gnatty. I love Gnat, no matter how many times we fight or have small arguments I always hope that we will become friends again. She has helped me out a lot and I defiantly consider her one of my best friends. I'm really glad that we started talking and that we still do. She gets down on herself a lot but she needs to realize she is a beautiful person, she's very good hearted and I believe that even if she thinks she screws up, she doesn't because her intentions always seem good. I defiantly hope we never lose touch even though we are 3,000 miles away. And I think as long as there's AOL..we wont haha.
Sandy. Sandy rocks. I've known her longer than anyone 'online' here. And she's one of the quirkiest people I know. Random, very random. She's a really rad friend. And thinks I'm bad ass..ha. Uhm. Sandy's mostly always happy when I talk to her and makes me laugh a hell of a lot, and gives me good advice when I ask for it. She's a very sweet girl and I know that things will go well for her in the future. She's defiantly fun to hang out with and I wish we could do so more..soon though, soon.
Sheena. Well, when I first kinda met Sheena, at an Orgy show. She didn't like me. She just told me this recently and it was for a silly reason. Typical girl stuff. But we eventually talked online a lot and though we aren't as good of friends as I am with other people I think we could be. We seem to have a lot of stuff in common and she is defiantly rockin. She's one of those people that is as into music as I am, it's possible that she might be a bit more into it. And I like that. I like how all my friends are 'obsessed' with music, all aspects of it. And yeah...
Erin. Erin is the first person I met on here. And I still talk to her. She's insane, in a good way, and always has some kinda advice for me when I bitch about my problems. She has also taught me a lot about making web sites which I thank her for because maybe one day I can actually get a job doing it haha.
Mandy. Mandy is a smooth criminal *looks around* I finally met her in March (02-04 2001) and even though the circumstances were weird, Im glad I finally got a chance to talk to her in person. She's a sweetie and I love her..she's my goddamned wife goddamnit! Ha. We've talked about a lot of weird shit that I don't think a lot of the other people I know would understand (psycho!!) and that's cool. I think we're a lot alike, but also a lot different. It depends on what kinda situation you throw us into. <3
The Old School Crew. For the ones I still like, I wish I was still in contact with you guys. For the ones that fucked me over, played with my head, talked shit about me, tried to ruin my life, brought my self esteem down to almost a 0 (that's 90% of them) fuck you. Look where I am now and where you are, still doing the same shit you were doing when you were 16..grow up. I thank all you for making me the person I am today and driving me to start living my life for myself and NOT the way you all wanted me to. And I thank you all for making me stronger. Even though at the time all these things hurt, now I look back and realize how pathetic it was that I let you do that to me.